I’m sure this is obvious by now from my several months of posts and training recaps, but a few months I went back to the not so warm embrace of dressage.
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I can’t say that there was one thing that brought me back to it. Mostly, it just felt nice to work on it. In some ways, dressage can be addictive. There are few things that bring me the satisfaction of a really smooth canter transition or a really forward, but relaxed trot or canter that your horse is stretching into. That may sound insane and likely pretty boring to most of you, but it’s true for me.
This has brought about a few different not so nice feelings in me.
For one, it makes me feel a bit guilty. My bff and horse-riding buddy is a skilled and talented rider (a more effective and patient rider than I’ve ever been), but she’s just not all that enthused by dressage. She’s noticed my lack of desire to jump and I think it bums her out, which bums me out.
As for stadium – well, I still like it, but only at small fence
heights. As my friend’s horse became
more confident in his abilities to jump (and boy, does he have some ability!)
the jumps slowly crept up in size. They’re
at a place that I just don’t enjoy jumping at (2’6”). I’m happy to jump around at 2 feet, but I’m
not happy jumping 2’3” – 2’6” courses.
It drives me nuts and embarrasses me that it scares me, but it
does. I have to pep talk myself over
that fence height, and pep talking oneself and ones horse through an entire
ride isn’t what I consider fun. So I don’t
do it very often.
I also feel like a bit of an asshole. Ever since my first training session on a cross-country course I kinda knew deep down that what I really liked about riding in the great outdoors isn’t jumping things – it’s just cantering along at a brisk, but controlled pace. Now – if there was such a sport that just required outdoor controlled-cantering, I’d be like “SIGN ME UP!”, but that’s not eventing.
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I am absolutely all about pushing myself and my riding abilities, but what I’m not into is pushing myself into areas that make me nervous every single ride. It seemed like a natural fit to start working on dressage again and I feel like I came back to it fresh and inspired.
Anyways… I haven’t said all this before, because as I mentioned above – it doesn’t give me the greatest feels, but I felt that an explanation was in order before I have a post on what is about to occur *cough* dressage saddle shopping *cough*. J
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