Me: "I never smile like that when I'm trying to ride a perfect 20 meter circle, and even if you do manage to make it a really nice circle - who gives a fuck?!"
Friend: "Oh god - you're never going back to dressage, are you?"
Over the past few months I've been slowly introducing jumping to Gavin and my regimen. And get this - I LOVE IT. I'm not scared (something my mom engrained in me when I was little "it's too scary, it's so scary, no jumping!"). I feel awesome when I'm circling a jump - I feel excited, I feel confident, and I feel confident in Gavin. And I smile. Like a ridiculous smile. It's been awesome.
So... yeh... I'm switching disciplines. Eventing here I come!
(Now I just need an instructor to help me learn everything there is to learn about jumping - since I'm a total noob)